I'm sitting in a Starbucks coffee house on the air force base as I type this. Why? :) I'm waiting on my youngest, my "baby," to finish her college assessment tests. Where oh where did the time go? I mean really...my oldest is out of the house, in the Air Force, married, and already on a trip to Korea. That makes me feel a bit old. :) My youngest is on her last leg in the house...in her senior year, taking college classes along with her HS school classes...and the HS is paying for them!! Anyway...it seems like they should still be in grade school driving me all kinds of nuts. But nope...now they're driving me nuts in a different way. :D I was emailing an acquaintance of mind earlier, trying to pass the time since this netbook doesn't have Microsoft Office and therefore I cannot do my schoolwork, and realized how long it had been since we "caught up" with each other. She was asking how the kids were doing...lol. I was like...uh, I don't really have kids anymore...they're pretty much adult children now. What a transition. Now I have to wait for them to come to me for advice...I can't just impart my vast experience and knowledge on them on a whim anymore. Well, I suppose I could, but I'm sure it wouldn't be appreciated. :) I did talk to my oldest a bit the other day and was talking financial things. As I was telling him how to keep from getting into debt and other financial woes, I stopped. I inwardly started a monologue...I've given him this info before, probably many times over his teen years. So, I just stopped the conversation and said..."but I'm sure I've told you all this before...." and left it there. He agreed, quite politely I might add, which is new. LOL. I am getting better at this. I don't initiate many of the conversations anymore with my oldest...I let him come to me (or my husband). He seems to really like it that way. I think it makes him feel more in control of his life. Sure, it was a harder transition than I anticipated, going from protector to a person who is there for advice...when requested. But, I am doing it, and settling in to the role...slowly. :) I still have one in the house for whom I still am in the protector mode...and her leaving will have a huge impact on me, I can already tell. My husband best be around for that day or I am not sure I'll be OK...lol. She has grown into such a beautiful person. I just cherish her. I always thought my son would have my heart this way, but my daughter has taken over...maybe because it's just been her and I for the last several years (with my husband always gone for his job). I'm not sure, but my son has always had my heart...until he got married...maybe that's it. Who knows...what I do know is that I am going to be a mess when she leaves the house.
I suppose I'll stop the sappy stuff...Besides, my daughter's done with her assessments...and passed them all!! Can I get a Oh yeah! :D lol.
Til we chat again..
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