Hey. It's been a really long time since I blogged about much, but I had a few moments (OK, I really don't have a few moments, but I'm taking them) and thought I'd say hello. I'm not sure how many of the individuals I invited into my world here actually read this, but I do know their locations (I have an app on my page that tells me where folks are from that have clicked on my page). I have always been a fairly passive person for the most part, not really wanting controversy in my life. I recently stood up for myself and have really been black listed. I wasn't rude, of course in my opinion, but I was very firm, that I didn't want the blame of something long ago on my head any longer. It wasn't until I took control of my own thoughts and actions that I came to the realization that no matter what happened to me in my past, I was still responsible for what I did now and in the future. I couldn't keep saying that my past predicted my future. I wanted to be free of the prison in which my past was keeping me. It's been a long and arduous road, but I'm finally free and now the mistakes I make, and they are many, I own. It is a more difficult place to be because you don't have the freedom to blame people or events. It is freeing though. I just wanted that freedom for others...I was black listed. I have to be OK with this as there isn't much I can do about it. It's just such a strange turn of events. But, sometimes the more you help someone, the more they pull away. I am usually running towards help from people, so this concept baffles me to no end. Maybe someday I'll be able to figure this out...but not today.
I think I've blogged about this before, so I will stop. I do hope you all have a wonderful day. It's crazy hot here, triple digits, and my A/C has been running non stop, or so it seems. I know it's not. Please be safe in all you do and remember, God loves you and desires a relationship with you through Jesus. Don't wait!
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